“I hear the laughter of my friend, my sister, and my love.
They are part of the most beautiful, delicious,
and fascinating dream in the world, that I can ever dream.
Afraid that if I open my eyes, I’ll wake up from my dream, so
I can’t open my eyes in fear.
For this beautiful morning,thank you for gifting it to me.
I won’t be greedy and ask for more.
I won’t expect any more.
Right now, I am happy.”
—Kang Maru
One day, a woman walked into my life. I hurt her deeply with the harshest words possible. I pushed her away as much as I could. But, she still came back to me. She is so much like me, I see myself often when I look at her. She has the physical wounds that I have. The tears that fill my brain are flowing through her heart as well. I gave her those wounds. I made her cry. I should not have met her. I should not have allowed her to come into my life. Father, I’m regretting it. This is the first time…that I have ever regretted in my life.
“I want to date like others, and be able to love like others. I want to start all over again. I think I prayed for those things.What kind of person she is… I would ask those who know her. And at times, I’d hang around outside her house.
And at the times, I’d memorize all the songs of her favorite pop artist.
And the times, I’d go to the place she frequents and wait for her the whole day.
I’d tell her I miss her if I miss her and I’d say I long for her when I do. I’d feel excitement, and gratitude. To date like other people, I think I prayed for it.
And I say my prayers again… Thank you. Now I’m happy.”
-Kang Ma Ru-
(via colour-me-weird) May 8 2013 @ 01:58pm